days without a life...

We always hear this.. " Find a job which we are really like, which we have passion for... "

Now I really understand why. Working is not like going to school. While studying in school, we can simply ponteng if we dont feel like going. But work is different. There is huge committment and responsibilty. We can't simply not go for work even we are realllllly tired, even we hate our jobs, even we hate the people we are working with. So we have to find a job which we are really passionate in. So we wont be so pissed off during work and enjoy working all day long.

I really appreciate studying more than working now (with exception to the days in Walt Disney World). Doing things which you dislike is really a pain in the ass (pardon me for my language cos I am seriously very mad). I believe if I ejoy doing what I want, things would be different.

I am a relief teacher.

I teach in primary schools.

I used to love teaching so much and thought of becoming a teacher.

I used to enjoy doing relief teaching cos it is good money and no committment.

But not now... Now that I am taking a P6 class,

teaching became both mentally and physically straining.

I got a message from Mrs Yeong on thurs,

saying that she has another 2 weeks of hospitalization leave.

Is it a blessing or is it a disaster?

Blessing- I have job for another 2 weeks, meaning $$$$

Disaster- I got to face the arrogant, attrocious kids for another 2 weeks!

They are already 12 yrs old, primary 6. I thought there is no need for me to shout and yell at them all the time liao since they had grown up. So, I decided to treat them as friends- talk to them nicely, crack some jokes to them etc. But it turned out to be DISASTER! They talk when I am talking, they curse and swear, they talk back to me while I give instructions etc etc etc.. The class went out of control.. I knew I need to be strict on them but it was too late. They behave like mad dogs, which i cant control anymore... :(

I am utterly upset over this issue... Reasons being:

1) I have to mark and mark and mark.. During my free periods, stay back after school to mark and even at home. There is no end to it. Mark maths, english exams paper, corrections and what worse is to mark few stacks of COMPO during the labour day+my weekends. I cant go out and enjoy my weekends like i used to me.

2) My naughty monkeys in class which do not respect me, which treat me like shit. It's a battle with them everyday. I cant be too strict or even yell at them- if not i would be seen as reasonable. They themselves are not behaving yet they complain to the school. This is completely ridiculous!!!!! Kids these days are simply tooo much.. I am sure I wont allow my kids to do that in future..

3) Waking up early- as early as 530am starting from today as I need to be in class by 6.45am everyday! &#@% (damn angry you know!)

I am only paid a daily rate of less than 70 a DAY- from 645am till night (since i am marking all day long)... &*%$ I should have just quit this job and find an eng eng work from 9-5/6 everyday. At least I still have a life..

I really hope things will get better. I dont mind marking, dont mind waking up early provided my monkeys listen to me. Sad sad sad... I just want to have a stop to these...